Late night thoughts
It's already 12 and I still haven't sleep. I should get my beauty sleep but I just want to express my feelings.
I believe that word is power. I enjoy writing since I was small. I enjoy writing essay or maybe some short stories. For me,writing is another way for me to express my thoughts and feelings instead of talking. I do not talk much. Sometimes I give a not really good impression to others. All my friends said that when they're not a 'friend' yet with me,they feel like I am very cool and quiet and even worse ,they think like I am unfriendly and arrogant. It's quite hurt for me when I heard something like this. I am not a person like this.
Compare to love relationship, I will really cry if the friendship broke up even though when I was watching drama. I have faced this before and deep inside my heart,it hurts. I treated everyone sincerely but I think I should't do this anymore. Peoples will not appreaciate it. NOT EVEN ONCE.I just hope that you doing fine. I BELIEVE IN KARMA.Maybe it's my fault but who knows?
I duno how to make the first step to communicate with others. it's really hard for me. I am not as outgoing as my college mates. I am so admiring at those who can instantly socializing with others within 1 second. I can't. It takes time for me to make friends with other. Most of my close friends said that after I am being close with them,I am exactly opposite from what they thought before. I can be very talkative and most of the time is nonsense. The first thing is I must be secure if we are together. Even strangers or hi-bye friend also cannot. I will let you to talk and I will rather keep quiet.
Because like that, I don't really have much friends. I dont like fake friends,somehow like friends for benefit and dramas. I am so tired to deal with it. I know that we will face a lot of people like that,wearing their mask to communicate with others. I know that we have to face it,one day.
I have seen a lot of people like this in my school or even in primary school. Are they too mature or I am the only one too innocent?
Every things we do sure will have pros and cons. Maybe because of that, I have a few of true friends. They still by my side no matter what happens.Friendship takes time,but I believe it's worth. As long as we are friends, I promise I won't let our friendship faded. I believe that true love exists,so does true friendship. We like to talk nonsense when we gather together. Chit Chating non stop and laughing so loud until our image all gone. Even my secondary school friends, we also keep in touch even though we study in different college. I believe distance won't seperate us. I am so touched that they still remember me until now. ILY.
For all my babes, we all have grown up. We are busy with our own life. We no need to meet each other everyday but please believe and trust me, I will be there for you if you need me.
Thanks for being my friends for so long.Just a late night thought.I will end here. Bye.
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